curious girl under glass

astro_heart @ 2003-01-23T15:10:00

2003-01-23T20:12:01Z

okay, this is the last time i'm going to mention this.

if you haven't added my new journal yet, and you want to, please do so.

compare

i just wanted to point that out, in case someone missed the memo. because i'm deleting astro_heart after i post this.

bye<3

astro_heart @ 2003-01-19T10:00:00

2003-01-19T15:03:49Z

i guess this is it..(again.)

i'm leaving this name, so if you still want to be able to read my entries or whatever, go add compare.

if you don't feel like adding me there then..oh well. i guess i'll miss you :-* lol

okay...that's all. i might turn astro_heart into a photolog, so you can keep it added if you want, i don't care either way.

bye =x

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..just in case you didn't..oh..i dont know..SEE it the first time..go add it, because i love you. :x

astro_heart @ 2003-01-18T22:39:00

2003-01-19T03:41:02Z

new icon.

here's a man whose face hasn't been projected by one of my icons in a WHILE.

plus, the monkey is cool.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-18T21:12:00

2003-01-19T02:14:44Z

thanks to she_to_me, i was able to make this.=)
i'm not too hung up on the name, but you can't get very pretty with usernames on LJ anymore (..since they're taken over by people who never use them..>:{)

so yeah, i'm probably going to sit and debate with myself for another week or so until i decide to move to it permanently.

words of encouragement are always welcome.

{oh..i have pictures from where katie and i went. i'll post them if i feel like blinding everyone with my ugliness later.}

astro_heart @ 2003-01-17T15:19:00

2003-01-17T20:48:51Z

...i think i'm going to leave until tomorrow evening with katie and her family. katie and i haven't hung out a lot lately, and i think she's upset about my mom's job search in phoenix, so this should be good.

where i'm going, i honestly don't know. i guess i'll see when i get there. somewhere in pennsylvania, i think. i'll have my camera, my cell phone(*cough*), and my cds, so i should be fine. ;x

so yeah. later.

ps.; commander venus. hee. (...i said 'hee'. kill me now =x)

astro_heart @ 2003-01-17T12:20:00

2003-01-17T17:21:39Z

http://journal.onlinehq.net/

this is mine on there. i heard it's like, 10 icons or something, because it just started. so yeah, it's neat.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-17T11:20:00

2003-01-17T16:20:35Z

i finally deleted adriennejr. so if you still had it added, you can finally delete it off your lists.

i'm still being an indecisive little retard that can't think of a new username. lexi was supposed to help me, but i don't know what happened with that. anyway.

i want to get my hair cut today. i've been saying that for the last 2 weeks. maybe one day i'll actually do it.

i'm obsessed with this song.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-17T10:36:00

2003-01-17T15:36:43Z

..school? what's that? =X

astro_heart @ 2003-01-16T20:30:00

2003-01-17T01:31:49Z

new icon. if it sucks, that's because i made it myself.

and i'm going to move to a new name soon. i have one in mind, but i'm not sure yet. okay yeah that's my stupid update of the day. i'm not going to school tomorrow. i'm too lazy to.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-16T07:17:00

2003-01-16T12:18:16Z

"my BAY-BE."

...hahahahahahaha.

..yes, that really was necessary.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-16T06:38:00

2003-01-16T11:39:23Z

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..did you ever notice how the usernames you want are either taken by someone who NEVER updates, deleted, or got suspended?...jesus. lol

astro_heart @ 2003-01-15T16:34:00

2003-01-15T21:38:59Z

i can't take this. i have to change my username.

i don't know what it is. i can't stay in one place for too long. i mean, i went through my last one for well over a year, but because i was stupid...REALLY stupid. one of those..if i saw the person i used to be walking down the street, i would beat the fucking shit out of her without hesitation.

but yeah, as soon as i find a code, i'm going onto a new name. things die out, and dedication gets pointless afterwards. ....well, it made sense to me, at least.

if you don't want to add my new name, it's okay. i know i really didn't talk to a lot of you, and for that i'm sorry. if anyone adds me when i change over, i'm going to try and be more social.

..i don't know what it is. it's just something telling me to leave this and start over....again.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-15T06:49:00

2003-01-15T11:56:38Z

right about now, i want

-a new username
-a paid account.

..yeah. that's what i want. i don't know why, but i don't like this username anymore. it doesnt seem like...me, anymore. and a paid account is just because i think it would be nice. :x

so yeah. i just sat in front of this screen for about 10 minutes before deciding that i have nothing else to say.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-14T13:26:00

2003-01-14T18:33:09Z

..during lunch i called my dad on my cell and told him i was bored of school and wanted to go home, so he came and picked me up.

hahaha this fucking rules.

OHOHOHOHOH.....
AND MIKE GAVE ME THE DESAPARECIDOS CD [!!] i swear i was so fucking happy when it was handed to me, lmao. mmm more Conor to love now.

okay, i came home just for Lexi, now WHY isnt she online?! >:o

astro_heart @ 2003-01-14T06:52:00

2003-01-14T11:58:08Z

Katie's boyfriend has seen Bright Eyes over the summer. I'm very jealous. But he only has their Lifted CD. so me, being the nice person i am, made him copies of the other 5 i have.

and in return, he's burning me his Desaparecidos CD. <333 i can't wait to get that. That's basically the only reason I'm going to school today. haha

he's making me some other CDs, but i told him to surprise me with what they are, so i guess we'll see. But Mike has the best musical taste out of everyone i know, so it shouldn't be too bad.

(oh, and yesterday Katie told my crisis counselor that i was cutting [because she was "worried" or something], and he made me stay in his office for almost 2 hours to talk to me about it. that did NOT make me very pleased.)

astro_heart @ 2003-01-13T07:09:00

2003-01-13T12:16:21Z

..sometimes you just have to grin and let others think you're happy.

..i'm really not in the mood for school today.

uhm..yesterday i took down my wall o' Green Day [ which is basically a HUGE pinboard filled up with posters and print-out pictures and shit ] and took ALL the pictures off so my mom could have the pinboard. then i had to tape them all BACK up on my wall.
BUT, at least i got a dry erase marker board out of it. i love it. it's huge, and i've always wanted one to have something to scribble lyrics and pictures on when i get board, and then erase and start over <3.

..now i need somewhere to put the fucking thing.

....oh, yeah. yesterday my mom bought me "The Sims: Unleashed" ..i swear, it's the fucking best lmao. my sims have like, 23457823 animals running around the house. so now there's about 6 versions of The Sims running on my computer, so if one day it magically crashes, at least i'll know why. :x

...uuhhh okay bye.

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2003-01-12T17:16:30Z

friend locked entry below.

you'll understand why it's locked after you read it.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-11T14:46:00

2003-01-11T19:50:19Z

im charging my cellphone now. im never getting my keyboard back. im a bitch now according to mydad. at least he didnt beat me up again.

kayla, lexi, whoever, call my cell later if you want, because i wont be online for the rest of my life. bye.

ps. my parents want to send me away for my cutting. i fucking hate this.

..im not in control anymore

astro_heart @ 2003-01-11T01:20:00

2003-01-11T06:22:41Z

..tonight was a really good night for Ben and Arienette. ;D lol..not that any of you know what i'm talking about. hahaha.

that makes me happy. which is much better than how i've been feeling lately.

Thanks so much, Lexi. you and me = GREAT RPing and GREAT RPing = HAPPY ROXY

astro_heart @ 2003-01-10T15:40:00

2003-01-10T20:43:10Z

i yelled at my french teacher today during 2nd period, and the day went downhill from there.

teacher-;:picks up MY notebook and throws it onto a desk after yelling at me to move my seat:;

me-"yes, that is MY fucking notebook! very good. how about you NOT touch it, thanks."

..that woman can fucking rot. she never leaves me the fuck alone.

..i wrote this song thing 3rd period when i wasn't paying attention in algebra. i'm debating on whether to post it or not. everyone seems to be on such a critical binge lately, fuckers.

ps;

wannabe ghetto people in my school-"yeah we're keeping it ghansta." ;:looks at bob:; 'WEST SIIIIIDE' ;:does hand motion:;

us-"..uhh.."

wannabe ghetto people-" yeah, see..you guys are-;:does rock symbol:;..but WE'RE ;:does west-side symbol:;..get it?!"

me-"...don't you think it's kind of hard to be "west side" when we live in EAST Paterson? ..we don't even have a ghetto..dumbass

yeah so, enough of my shitty mood.

astro_heart @ 2003-01-09T21:22:00

2003-01-10T02:23:55Z

i'm going to write this and hope that LJ stops being a fucking bitch, just until i post it.

this morning i didn't even get to my first period class. my crisis counselor stopped me in the hallway and said he wanted to talk to me RIGHT THEN. i asked him why and he said "..because." so i went "..mother FUCKER" and walked back the way i came to his office. {hey, you can't blame me. it was 8 in the morning, and i was in NO mood for "discussion".}

he tried to talk to me for a while, so i told him some random things that were wrong just so he'd get off my fucking back about it. then he started interrogating me about my happiness. why i go from happy to sad in the matter of minutes, if it happens all the time, if i can control it if i tried, blah blah.

then he told me i should look up for a psychiatrist, because he thinks i should be prescribed with anti-depressants. ugh. i don't fucking need to be on meds. i can handle this shit on my own, thanks.

the day just basically sucked from there on out. i came close to blowing up at my french teacher, i yelled at my algebra teacher for her being a fucking moron and trying to take my bookbag. lunch i was so wrapped up in my Bright Eyes CD that i didn't give a shit about what my friends were doing.

the only good part of the day was Drivers Ed {yes, i actually ATTENDED class today!}. we got to play with those goggles that make everything look like it would if you were drunk. my teacher made me and katie try to play catch with this yellow ball with the goggles on, and it was pretty funny. i kept throwing it off and hitting this guy in the face. and then katie threw it and it landed in a chair, and i tried to get it, and wound up walking into a desk. THIS is why i don't drink, lol.

i came home and everything started bothering me. just...everything. i was annoyed by everything. so i slept for a while, came back, and no one's online. so now that makes me frowny.

..i also was too lazy today to put my CDs back into my stereo so i can listen to them in my room all day, so i've been sitting here since i got home, listening to CDs off my Discman next to me, with the headphones next to my keyboard, turned all the way up.

i have 2 reports due that i haven't done yet, and don't plan to do, either. eh, fuck it. i'll tell my teachers that my printer broke.

i have a background i want to upload, but i made it myself, so it kinda sucks.

ugh

2003-01-09T21:45:38Z

..i was in..a...uhm..decent..mood for part of the day, but now i'm just annoyed..and frustrated.. and hostile and angry and BITCHY and IORWIHF9UIHJER FHSIUOF H UGHHH. fuck everything.

i'll write about my day when i'm not pissed off by just about everything.

;]

2003-01-09T12:06:31Z

"yeah i heard you..lift up your shirt..the wound isn't there."

..this song is really cool.

"i'm pouring some whiskey..gonna get so soo drunk..and pass out..forget your face..by the time i wake up.."

..how about all of us skip school today and go to DisneyLand? What do you say?

< short rant >

2003-01-09T03:33:12Z

..i figured it out. the reason i stopped going to my beloved underground shows is because of the sudden burst of teeny boppers crowding the 'scene' lately.

i hate the teenies.

i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them.

fuck them and their "only going because the lead singers are..lyke..SOO HAWT." ..FUCK THEM.

i hate teenies. i hate teenies. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them. i hate them.

fuck them and their "lyke..OH MY GAWWWDDD your chain is so PUNK! where'd you get it?! HOT TOPIC?!" {me--"....no." } "..oh..THAT'S WHERE I GOT MINE!" fuck.

i hate them. i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them.

..did i mention..I FUCKING HATE THEM.

they invade our shows, they invade our MALL. {i've noticed..when they go to the mall..they ONLY talk to guys that are "in the bands" here. stupid fucking slutty groupies.}

JFIHE9UFH98UEHF UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i.fucking.hate.them.

< / end rant >

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2003-01-08T21:38:32Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RAVEN!

lmao i didn't mean to attack you in the hallway [WAAYYY TOO EARLY] this morning when i was screaming "..HAPPYBIRTHDAYHAPPYBIRTHDAYHAPPYBIRTHDAY" in your ear.

okay..i lied. i did.

anyway, happy birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyy. ~~you owe me Scream, girlie.~~